What is happening here? I know exactly what is happening here: disillusion. Coming back from my trip, getting self employed with all my great great lovely pictures, send it to magazines and get work. hahaha. Fantastic how incredible dumb we can be in this world. This world I am living now has nothing to do with passion and ability. No .. its all about connection. And if you don’t know anybody in this little damn world, you are nobody. The great thing about this traveling is that you get kind of like the feeling to understand the world from its origin. What keeps people and societies together: love and trust. I can’t see this here in Hamburg. its all about doubting and so much looking at other people who behave strange. No acceptance. Of course I could do one thing I always used to do in the past in new countries, different people and all this: I just relax, accept how this world is, how people are and I am fine with the murders, the economists, the lawyers, the baggers and the elderly. The only difference here is, its my country, that’s where I am from and if I am going to run away now and start an easy life abroad, I will never make it. Its fantastic how you can find all this things like love and peace and trust along your journey while traveling and you come back where you feel home the most and you are far away from all these good feelings. So all I can do is fight. But this seems to be another circumstance I didn’t think of. Not be a prostitute, to be free in your mind and do what you feel like (artist) works and it doesn’t work. As artists we need those gallery guys and art guys and all the nonsense talking people coming to your exhibition too. Otherwise nobody is going to buy it. So if you want to be a prostitute in an art world or in the business world, its up to you. I am glad I have a choice though. So in the end its all about the same thing: money. otherwise you can’t survive.
2 more things:
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- I deleted my flickr account. I felt like its the right time.