The title makes no sense at all, but it came naturally through my mind while listening to digable planets. I’m still working on my incredible career as a photographer: writing people, taking pictures and think about pictures anyways. I just came back from Spain and of course I took pictures too. But nothing great. I have the feeling since I am back from my world trip I haven’t done any great work. What is it that makes me think I can’t take great pictures anymore. Maybe the places I’ve been aren’t as spectacular as the people from India or Pakistan or the the landscape in China or New Zealand. I was actually convinced that good pictures are possible to take, wherever you are. And I think that’s the case. But since I am back I can’t see any great places. The problem is actually not the place. Its the inspiration you get or not. And I don’t feel inspired at all to be honest. Also, the style which seems to be hip in Germany since a couple of years is totally not my style and bores me to hell (white, architectural, cold, clean, simple, emotionless ). I should carry on with my own style and don’t get into this everybody is doing it crap. To be self employed is awesome. You are just working for yourself and nobody tells you what to do. You are free to do what you think you need to do. Of course, you need to be very convinced about your plans and ideas, otherwise you’re not doing anything. The problem of photography and other artistic things you do. You really need to think through a project before you start. But if you think to much, a day too long, the whole project is in danger because of your doubts to your own ideas. The point where you turn your ideas into action is a very important point and hard to find. Anyways, I’m strong and its gonna be the most ridiculous thing if I am not gonna make this year. I WILL. Why am I so sure? I read my Chinese horoscope on several websites and it told me that I am going to be very successfully this year. In November probably. haha. So there are only another 7 months without income or low income and doubts. Well, at least I know how its going to happen.
The pictures of Spain by the way are totally boring and there is nothing at all I feel like showing. All the best for everybody. An uncertain future ahead of me including how things turn out to be, where I am going to go in September or if I stay and so on. Anyways. The only thing I would like to have and can’t get is patience.