archive for July, 2008
Love one and Love two
As I talked before on this blog about personal things already, it doesn’t really matter to continue with this kind of emotional stuff.
I fell in love with a woman again and I want to tell you about my feelings towards her, but more in terms of love one and love two.
What I experiences in love one is more like a overwhelming feeling you get when you see that girl you are in love with. You feel really good with her and have a great time even though you feel sometimes for doing apologies towards the way you treated her or acted or whatever, basically being you. And its totally ok for you, because you love her, right ?! But in the end it seems to be more close to devotion instead of being you.
With this woman right now, Shawnee her beautiful name, I think to believe in love 2 which is more about: Be the way you are and you are getting totally accepted. With all your mistakes, habits and other things which seems to be awkward at the first sight towards other people around you in your life. And the same feeling comes from me as well. I love her 100%. Everything, just everything. Even the words “I love you” seem to be so ridiculous, because they have been disused so much in the past from other people that it doesn’t sound real anymore to say those words. Love 2 is more a feeling which is there continuously. If bad times or good times. You just know that you can share everything. Right now I am living without her and it doesn’t matter, because we both know about each others existence. What a beautiful thing I have to tell you here.
round or no box
escaping from society and be free in nature and experience life only with nature is beautiful. We extend our horizonts to new levels and realize that things can be so much more beautiful in nature as in society. Trying to keep those new feelings (free minded, not attached to commercialized habbits, live without a box around us) when coming back to a city (society), we figure out pretty quick that we loose those feelings faster that we want, we expect. How to keep those when coming back in society?
We carry on living in a rounded box instead of a squared box. That sounded pretty good to me until a couple of days ago, because isn’t it the fact that a box is a box is a box is a box.
I will just carry on living to figure out the box thing. sounds good.