Right now, I have this weird feeling again.I remember having it a couple of times already in my life. Very rarely though. I am working on something and all of the sudden I get all those thoughts, ideas, unspoken sentences back in my head I had a couple of days ago. Maybe they are the leftovers from a dream I just had last night. All this weird thoughts come up and I want to remember them so much, because I know I had them before and I want to keep them, want to finish work on those thoughts, but I can’t, because they come all at once and really fast, like a shower of sweats: You want to catch all of them, but you have only 2 hands and are not fast enough. While having this weird moment of about half a minute, I totally forget about where I am, what country I am in, what place I am at, how the room looks around me and who the person next to me is. I have to actually look around and get a feeling of where I am and how I got here. I am totally lost in memories and flashbacks. Its actually a beautiful feeling and it usually comes in very intense moments of concentration. I don’t have to worry about anything anymore. What my problems are, where I live, issues with my life, problems, doubts, anger, fear, anything, because I don’t know anything anymore. Nothing is there anymore, because I am nowhere and I am a no one. A state of trance almost.

By the time I turn around and I realize where I am, look to my neighbour to see his face and look on my laptop what i am actually doing right now, I slowly remember everything. This moment though, where everything comes to mind again I experienced subcontiously the thoughts of the past few days, its beautiful. It tells me that nothing gets lost in my head. While writing this I am still in this state of being and I enjoy it. Its peaceful and quite and it feels good.

I don’t want to wake up again. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh