POST 182

Actually I want to write this blog entry since days and I had in my head what I was going to write and now I lost it all and
am afraid I’ll write some unimportant and random stuff nobody could be bothered.

Usually I am trying to write more generally speaking, so everybody can relate to it and pull out the nutritious information they need. So rather telling what’s specifically so awesome in my life I’ll try to tell our great family feels.

Yesterday at the dinner table with Shawnee and Zoe I felt the first time something like a family feeling, which is really nice. So far dinners together in shanghai still didn’t feel like something a family is doing, more like a boyfriend with his girlfriend and her daugther who also lives with us. Maybe the family camp I’ve been to the last 5 days had influence as well. (The family camp is a family gathering of 3-5 families who all enjoy nature and games for a week). However, I now feel like I have my own little family, with or without Liam. The feeling while dinner yesterday was a warm and embracing feeling, which made me happy. Not crazy lets go to Disneyland happiness, more like a everything is balanced happiness. I am thankful I found my little family, because I was a little worried I am to nervous and change girlfriends every 2 years.

Photography wise many things happened, since I told myself I really want to push my photography more seriously on the 24th of July this year. First I took those pictures here of my pregnant girlfriend Shawnee and her daughter Zoe:

Secondly I photographed for fun our agency client and her co-workers on my birthday and had really good fun. Post production is from me as well:

And last but not least a friend:

I’d say I pick my camera up more and understand again that I need to take many pictures to get some good results. I think its great though to take a break. I took a long break in Australia, Hong Kong and New Zealand kind of and in Vietnam I had loads of fun photographing again.

So I still have my report ideas, but trouble to take the time to realise them. The most valuable on my world trip was definitely the endless time I had to spent just for myself and my photography.

I like what I do and I like my life the way it is and its not because I am so lucky in everything, its more because I appreciate the now. I did the past year as well and thought about how lucky I should be having so much time for taking pictures. I did use the time for taking pictures and now I have less time, which is OK because I somehow knew it. I learned to be happy with what I have now.

One thing though I have my concerns with: Because everything works out so smoothly and beautifully, there is not much too worry, and when there is not much to worry, you think less about why things are the way they are. Interesting philosophy comes only from people who go occasionally through hard times. So I hope its not too well for me in future, because I miss the thinking part somehow.

One thing I want to ask you my dear blog reader, I’d like to promote my photography a little more and maybe you have some ideas how to. I guess one reason I am not taking the big step to do my photography as a daily business is because I am afraid to loose my interest on photography. There are tonnes of jobs out there which are related to things I really don’t want to photograph for a daily business: products, babies, weddings, fashion and so on.

I guess I might try to stay on the artistic-report photography track and move forward the liberal and harder way.

Next time I am writing here I’ll introduce my son to you

P.S. I just thought about why this blog entry was so important to me to write, even though there is nothing special special happening. It makes me think. And its good to think.