Since I moved here to this house and noticed one day the falcon in the neighbors garden, I ran out with my camera and hoped I can take a picture before he’s gone. He still sits there. The neighbor attached his leg with a string to the roof house he is sitting on. Both sides of the roof are totally white of bird shit and tells me that the falcon is sitting there already since a while. I’m sure the falcon wants to and needs to fly and didn’t think of a life sitting on a roof all day and night long. its sits and sits and sits. Both of his wings seem to work. When he spreads out his wings to turn around, I can see that he is able to fly. I am not an expert. I just know he can. The longer the falcon sits on this roof, the more I feel angry about the guy who keeps him away from flying. My thoughts to free the falcon become bigger and bigger. BUT, and that’s where the dilemma starts:

The falcon doesn’t belong to me, its probably the property of this neighbor and the neighbor let the bird fly when its time to let the bird fly, because its a special falcon. He also might have payed thousands of euros to get the bird and now trains him. Maybe he is a veteran and keeps the bird until his broken wings are good enough again, so it can be on his own again.

However you want to this, I can’t force myself to talk to the guy and ask him about his falcon. Why? That’s probably what I need to figure out. I usually don’t feel that emotionally with animals, but this falcon doesn’t seem to be a usually bird. Today I suddenly thought of the falcon as a metaphor to my own situation I am in. I am able to fly but something stops me from using my wings. The falcon can move only in two directions. North and South, and mostly its looking south. I can move wherever I want, but I know I would just keep on trying to escape from myself. So either the falcon is what I am and what to happen to him, happens to me right now, or the falcon shows me how free I actually am, but still lock myself up in thoughts and doubts.

I’ll watch the falcon and find out about it.